I was asked a question, ”What do you want from God in these last few weeks of lecture phase?” After thinking for a while about all that I’ve been through and learned so far during my DTS, I had only one response. “I want to experience His goodness.” I knew that He was good but I wanted an experience where I could testify without a doubt that He was. Little did I know that I would have that experience in just a matter of hours.
The topic in class for that week has been Lordship. The whole premise of it was making Jesus the Lord of our lives and surrendering every aspect of them to Him. Thursday’s session was specifically about finances and how God asks us to give to others, not just in seasons of abundance but even when we are in need.
2 Corinthians 8:2 says “They are being tested by many troubles, and they are very poor. But they are also filled with abundant joy, which has overflowed in rich generosity.”
This challenged me because, during this time, I was definitely in need. I was getting ready to go to Thailand in less than a month and I still had $4,500 to be paid for in outreach fees. I was believing God for that financial breakthrough, and I was still walking out the principle of giving even before this, but I had a feeling that this day would be different than all the other times.
It was nearing the end of the class and our speaker gave us a challenge: ask the Lord what he wanted us to give to those who still needed funds in the class. We were asked to write down our names and what we needed on the whiteboard. I walked up to the board, wrote the amount I needed, not knowing what would happen but trusting that something would. After that, it was time for us to pray about what the Lord wanted us to give. Even before I asked Him I heard that still small voice telling me something I couldn’t believe, ”Give away your cellphone,” specifically highlighting who to give it to.
Now, I really wish I could’ve responded with a joyful heart right away but I was wrestling with the idea. So many thoughts ran through my mind. How would I contact my family? What were they going to think? I worked so hard for this phone! During my time of wrestling, dollar amounts were being subtracted from the whiteboard that people were committing to give. Dollar amount after dollar amount. It was quite a sight to see… but my amount wasn’t budging. I was starting to get discouraged.
Then something happened, someone came to me pledging to give me a backpack. And immediately I remembered how a few days prior, my outreach leader had asked the team if we had backpacks for Thailand. At that time, I had no idea how I would buy one. I didn’t even have the funds for outreach yet. I had been so concerned, but now I found myself with the very backpack I needed. God knew my concern and had chosen this exact moment to let me know that He was listening and wanted to meet that need.
After that moment, all my wrestling went out the window. I was so overcome by the joy and love of God in that moment of giving, that I obediently went back to my seat without a phone. I could physically feel my flesh dying at that very moment. Less than 5 minutes after that, the time came for another person’s dollar amount to be subtracted. I felt the Lord tell me that it was for me, and it was. -$1,075 was written under my original $4,500. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. After that, another -$200, then another -$600. The total came down to $1,875, almost half of my outreach fees had been paid for.
I was overwhelmed with God’s goodness and what simple obedience could do. After class, I was still in shock but God wasn’t finished yet. One of my friends came to me and said God was asking her to give away her phone too and gave it to me. I was in even more shock. I didn’t know what to do with myself. It was like my obedience was being tested. God just wanted to see how far I would go for Him and gave me back the very thing I gave up plus so much more. He wanted to know that He could trust me as I trusted Him.
I definitely got what I asked for earlier that day and now I have a testimony of God’s overwhelming goodness to share with others.