I was looking at a photo posted on our YWAM Kansas City website this morning, and it sparked a train of thought.
Back in 2011, during my three month time in Kona, I was seeking God for direction for my next step. I had multiple opportunities for ministry and openings for education, and for many days I would go into the prayer room and ask Him, “God, is it A, B, C or D?” But He never answered.
All of my options had deadlines, and pressure began to build up as I waited to hear the right answer from God, so that I could prepare to move onto the next big thing. I kept asking, “God, is it A, B, C, or D?” But the silence continued.
Then one day a thought came into my head.
“Maybe I’m asking the wrong question…”
I was asking God a multiple choice question to tell me which one was the safest, the most beneficial, and the most secure for my future endeavor. The question in itself was self-centered, and it was not pleasing to the Lord. What if it was none of the above? What if God had a completely different plan in His mind?
Then, I felt like the Lord was prompting in my spirit,
“I do not want your multiple choice question. I want a blank sheet of paper with an open-ended essay that I can write on.”
And I had to respond, “Yes, Lord. Write them as You please.”
Long story short, I eventually made my way here to YWAM Kansas City. These past 4 years have been the most challenging yet rewarding and blessed season of my life. I’ve been stretched financially, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually beyond what I thought I could handle, but what I’ve gained outweighs the hardships. I’ve received ministry experience beyond my years, friendships and partnerships that will last a lifetime, refined character and calling, and most importantly, marrying the most incredible woman in this planet.
Come to think of it, YWAM Kansas City didn’t even exist when I was asking God for direction. And God had so much more for me in mind than I could even think of or imagine. Many times, God can’t tell us what’s next, because either it doesn’t exist yet or we can’t handle it. If we let Him, He faithfully writes our story so that His beauty and His perfection can be read through our lives.
Let God write your story. It’s so worth it. “Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith” (Hebrews 12:1-2).