Quite frankly, I’m at a loss for words when it comes to summing up my time in Lecture Phase. What could I possibly say to sum up the craziest 3 months of my life? I don’t feel like I could just throw out some lame adjective to describe all that the Lord has done in my life over the course of lecture. No eloquent words or clever quotes could sum this up. If there’s anything that I could say about my lecture phase at YWAM KC, it would be…
Prior to YWAM, I had no experience in loving people. I had never been a part of a team, and the relationships that I had maintained were unhealthy. So how on earth was I supposed to get close to God or my classmates? On Week 3 of the Lecture Phase, Jason Nettles spoke to us on original design. One of the first things that he said was…
“If you’re uncomfortable with love, then you’re uncomfortable with God.”
That one phrase cut through my stone heart. As Jason continued his message, tears streamed down my face until I broke down. I realized that I couldn’t have a relationship with God because I was uncomfortable with the very thing He is made of. From that point on, God has been teaching me what it means to love Him and others. True love is always sincere and overflows out of the heart. I slowly but surely learned to serve people as an act of love.
For weeks, I worked on loving. I had to continually work on my tongue and attitude towards people and Christ. Today, I can say that I’m still growing in loving Christ, which is honestly the most rewarding thing ever. It is a privilege and honor to love the God of the universe. Christ has stolen my heart and I wouldn’t want it any other way. On the other hand, when it comes to loving my classmates, I think I’ve got it. It is one of the most satisfying things to be able to walk with such a God-fearing group.
I love each and every one of them. Not only because they accepted me when I struggled to accept myself, but because they embody the best of Christ.
In becoming more like Christ, we show more of His attributes, and I see more and more of Christ in my classmates every day. So to make a long story short, during my DTS at YWAM KC, Jesus taught me how to love in the most real way, which sometimes means being weak and uncomfortable. It is my prayer that anyone who comes to do a DTS will discover the same revelation.