In the Psalms, we see David crying out to the Lord over and over again. He shows real and raw emotion. He is angry, in fear, and full of sorrow. He constantly asks God to deliver him, and questions where the Lord is in the midst of everything.
Then, David does something else…
This past year has been a series of highs and lows for my life, and I too, have been wondering where God was in the midst of it all. Like David, I found myself asking God to show up, constantly waiting on the Lord to deliver me, but feeling as if every day presented more challenges.
I didn’t know how to respond to all the pain that I was feeling. I didn’t understand why it was happening, or why God would allow it to happen. My heart began to grow bitter. I began to become angry at God.
After months of battling, asking God where he was every day, I began to turn to Scripture for answers. Though it should have been the first place I looked, my view was so clouded that I didn’t even think of looking in God’s Word.
But it’s only after I started reading the Word that I began to really understand Psalms for the first time. Every time I had read the Psalms before, I just saw David as annoying and whiny, but this time I could relate to him. I could understand the emotions he was going through. I could understand all of the questions.
It was, then, that I saw his response.
In the midst of all of his emotions, in the middle of all of his questions, amongst all of his pain, he began to declare the character of God. He began to praise the Lord for His goodness, His kindness, His faithfulness.
In the middle of it all, David worshiped.
And that has to be my response as well. Though life hasn’t gotten easier, and sometimes the questions and pain still resurface, my response is different now. I worship God. I remember His goodness and faithfulness to me. I remember His character. And I wait on the Lord.
Though there are still no answers, I’ve come to realize that sometimes life is just like that. We don’t always understand, and we may never fully understand. But when we respond in worship, our heart shifts and it allows us to live differently. It allows us to live lives full of love, excitement, and joy.